Time to pull my head out of my butt... really..
Something just occured to me... how in the hell do I ever expect for something positive to happen when I am always so damned negative?? I want a child.. I want a precious little gem of a baby to hold in my arms.. but would I want to bring a child into such a negative environment? I have SO many things to be thankful for, but all I can focus on is what I DONT have.. How dare I? I have learned that God never gives us the things we want when we want them.. He gives them to us when we are READY for them.. and obviously He has seen what head space I am in right now. I need to pull my head out of my butt and smell the freaking roses!!! lol.
So, my new goals: Find something positive to do daily that will help make my body and home "baby friendly". This includes cutting out negative thoughts. I WILL have a baby when the time is right. This also includes exercising and eating healthy.. LOSE weight already!!! I wouldnt want to get pregnant this heavy would I? No... So, there are two things to focus on. I dont think complaining daily of this hurting or that hurting and how tired I am, and how jealous I am of my friends being pregnant etc. is helpful.. And I am driving my husband insane.
Going to go for a walk tonight... as far as my feet will let me. And making something healthy tonight for dinner.. OR, well, lets be honest here... "ordering" something healthy for dinner.. I cook, I burn.. lol I hope putting out positive energy will make it come back my way.
First OBGYN apointment Tuesday at 2:30. VERY nervous.. not knowing what to expect.. But hoping to get good news. And hoping that things will move forward
Have a great weekend everyone!!
So, my new goals: Find something positive to do daily that will help make my body and home "baby friendly". This includes cutting out negative thoughts. I WILL have a baby when the time is right. This also includes exercising and eating healthy.. LOSE weight already!!! I wouldnt want to get pregnant this heavy would I? No... So, there are two things to focus on. I dont think complaining daily of this hurting or that hurting and how tired I am, and how jealous I am of my friends being pregnant etc. is helpful.. And I am driving my husband insane.
Going to go for a walk tonight... as far as my feet will let me. And making something healthy tonight for dinner.. OR, well, lets be honest here... "ordering" something healthy for dinner.. I cook, I burn.. lol I hope putting out positive energy will make it come back my way.
First OBGYN apointment Tuesday at 2:30. VERY nervous.. not knowing what to expect.. But hoping to get good news. And hoping that things will move forward
Have a great weekend everyone!!
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Sounds likea great new attitude, keep it up! Hope your appointment goes well on Tuesday. Good luck!