Time to Breath

Craps class is finally over...most passed the written test with flying colors...made me so proud. Inspires me to teach another class soon, just not craps lol. I did find out that our company was sold this past week to Churchill Downs...Wonderful??? Not sure, ask again in 6 months. I am not in fear of losing my job...yet...life does go on though and one thing for sure is this casino would not close down if I wasn't here...
On another note...my Dad will turn 80 in February...now he has had an amazing career...30 years in the Army, 19 of those as Special Forces Green Beret. He is a lifer and an old timer, they call them ground pounders, or grunts. Neither is how I have ever looked at my Dad. He has always been a positive energy in my life. He loves unconditionally and asks for nothing in return. He has taught me well over the years. All of his Green Beret buddies that are still alive are helping me create a huge birthday party for him and all of them are going to fly in form all over the states to spend this day with him and with us. I AM SO EXCITED!!! They think we should have an open bar, a dance floor and a band...geez..I am gonna have to take a college 101 course on how to prepare for this LOL.
If my Maymay was here I could hand the whole project over to her and close my eyes, count to three and she would have had the whole thing planned and ready to go and it would be a HUGE success! Just another thing I miss so much. MayLyn loved celebrating, parties, birthdays and all of that...I can barely get a card sent in time, and those are usually late.
My friend Debbie is doing a little better this week, she is slowly gaining a little color back in her checks. Her Mom has been staying with her and her Mom lost a child back in the 70's at a young age, she understnads what her daughter is going through and has been a huge support for Debbie. I am so grateful she has been here. Debbie is a good woman with a huge heart and she has been a wonderful friend to me. I still wish my Mom could have supported me in some way, but with the Alzheimers...she still to this day is oblivious to MayLyn's passing. I was lonely and sad for so long...only saw the four walls of my room for over 2 years till some bright minded woman started up FMO...truly a blessing for me and for my family. Without FMO I would still be hiding in my room, full of sorrow and pain.
I will be doing the great mailing of letters this week so I am going to need each and every Mom to say a few prayers for us all. Pray that there is that special someone out there that will know just what to do and how to respond...quickly. I know I will be praying my butt off, this has been huge for me and I so want to be successful...I know we will make this happen, I just know it. F A I T H!!!!
I send butterflies and rainbows to each of you....I hope your week is filled with sunshine and peace...we all deserve a little peace in our lives every now and then...
Walking beside you always.....
Love jacqueline PLH
MayLyn...I looked at some of yur pictures this week and I am amazed at how much your daughter looks just like you. I know that Tina and Hunter are my blessings, but I wanted to tell you that I would give anything to smell your hair, hold you again, make you smile and laugh and be able to share all of this with you....Love always and forever...till we see each other again...Mom
 

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deleted_user

I wish you much success with the planning of your dad\'s party. Your pride shines through. I am also prayerful for your friend who lost her child. She is lucky she has her mother. I am like you...my mother has been stolen by Alzheimers. She is not cognizant of Brandon\'s passing for the most part. I pray you have a good week. Love, dale...brandon\'s mom
deleted_user
deleted_user

The party sounds great my husband is a big fan of the movie... I think it is called \" The Green Beret\" with John Wayne he sheds a tear at the end whenever he watches it and he is not a crier. I too lost my mother to early onset Alzheimers she was in her early 50\'s and died at 72 so sad as she raised 7 kids by herself for a long time and disserved to have a happy old age. Hopefully somebody will show Fmo the interest it needs to get out there for other Moms!
KandL
KandL

Jacqueline, You have an amazing Dad! Thanks to him for serving our country all these years. Prayers for Debbie. I am glad she has you & her mom to comfort her. My mother is not kind, supportive or nurturing & has, at times, been cruel to me over Eddie\'s passing among other things throughout my life. I have very little to do with her now as I must protect myself so I can survive the grief & be in fairly good shape for my grandchildren. I will keep the faith & hope the letters get the attention they deserve. Love & peace to you. Linda
deleted_user
deleted_user

Your dads birthday sounds like it is going to be amazing and yes I understand Anthony was the one who planned the celebrations. Thank you so much for all you have done for FMO and I know there is someone out there who is going to hear us and help to make Barbara\'s dream come true love you my friend and please know your butterfly gives me strength each day
deleted_user
deleted_user

Your dads birthday sounds like it is going to be amazing and yes I understand Anthony was the one who planned the celebrations. Thank you so much for all you have done for FMO and I know there is someone out there who is going to hear us and help to make Barbara\'s dream come true love you my friend and please know your butterfly gives me strength each day
deleted_user
deleted_user

Your dads birthday sounds like it is going to be amazing and yes I understand Anthony was the one who planned the celebrations. Thank you so much for all you have done for FMO and I know there is someone out there who is going to hear us and help to make Barbara\'s dream come true love you my friend and please know your butterfly gives me strength each day
deleted_user
deleted_user

I hope that the party for your Dad is a huge success!! Sounds like he really deserves it. I\'ll bet he is just going to love it. Much luck with the letters-we have to know that they will get to the right person, and that this person will be willing to help us spread the word about Barbara and this fantastic group that she has founded and lead from day one. Lots of love and a big hug, Beth
deleted_user
deleted_user

I think it is so wonderful, your Dad is going to be celebrated, by his family and friends, on his day. Sounds like a good man and great father. Kudos to him. I\'m sure your daughter will be there, too. Hope everything if perfect.... Gay
biowoman
biowoman

How proud you must be of your dad...not only a fine soldier...but a generous soul...enjoy and celebrate him! Love and hugs...Karen
Abotsd
Abotsd

I feel the same way about FMO. we\'re living in the right time.
KimRW
KimRW

The party plans sound great! How special that will be for him. Give him a hug from me and tell him thank you for his service! My prayers are with you on the letters. I know you have worked hard on this. Thank you! Keeping Debbie in my prayers too. Hugs, Kim
RememberKala
RememberKala

What an amazing life your dad has had! What a sacrifice he made for his country...for me. THANK YOU DAD! How awesome that some of his buddies will be able to spend that special day with him. Oh, to sit and listen to the stories which will be shared!!!

The letters WILL land in the right hands at the right time to produce the right result for FMO!!!! IT SHALL BE DONE!!!!

Thank you Jacqueline for all you bring to FMO. The power and love of Alexsis, the spirit of MayLyn, and the goal of Barbara, joined with your own spirit\'s will to survive and brought you out of that cold, lonely room. So, I thank Alexsis, MayLyn, Barbara, and YOU, for gifting us with your love, presence, and support.

PLH! my friend!!