Time passes too slowly

Its only been two weeks since the last letter from my ED telling me how terrible a mother I am...I was trying to wait at least a month before answering her. However all I do every night and every morning is think of what to answer first, and how she will take it. She doesn't know that I divorced her dad because he was cheating on me.  I sheltered her from way too much, I know now I shouldn't have. The truth hurts.  I think these kids have a little group of their own, and they wouldn't get much sympathy if they had a wonderful childhood.  So they make up things, in their minds, maybe they actually think they are true.  And who are we to ruin it for them... I'm waiting for some time alone to write her..SOON