time makes it better....
Really? Time makes it better? I've gone a week now without my best friend & lover. I can't stop crying. I know it is doing me no good to cry all the time. I can't eat. I know that too is draining me. I am trying to get better at taking care of myself but right now I can only see the bleak underimining pains of life. I cannot handle the no contact thing. How long will it take for him to message me? How long till I get the application? I check my mail every day. Is he ok? I am plagued with the wondering and the fears that he is not alright. If I could just hear his voice and touch his hands I would be in a better place. ....
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I read your last 2 journals. I am sorry you are going through this. Is his ex a jealous person? It takes a lil bit but he will be able to write and have phone privileges\' know this is not like having him there. But hopefully it will help you get through this until he is home with you again.
Thank you for your kind words... I am so scared that he\'s hurt.. or that something happened... I love him with my entire being... He is my world.. I just want a letter to know he is alright...
His ex claims that she doesn\'t care about us being together but she continually does things that get him in trouble with the law. I really hope you are right and that I hear from him soon. He is such a procrastinator. Now that he has to actually write it out and cannot type its going to be interesting to see how long it takes... I\'m a wreck waiting for him to be able to message me. I don\'t think he\'ll be home with me for a long time. He is facing 5-15 years.. I\'ll be at every court date though...