Time, is it my enemy or is it a friend

Sitting here on Monday morning looking out at the overcast day, my mood is the same.  I want so bad for a loving wife and companion but this has left me without a heart. I hear everyone say the same, give it time...Time is painful, cruel, and unrelenting. I am constantly reminded of my wife, and when my daughter says anything about her, you grin and say great honey and feel like crap again.  You see I am still without answers as to why she would do this to me. I probably always will too.  I guess the other is why do this to your daughter.  I have been going thru the emotional roller coaster like crazy this weekend.  
Now about time; Here i am 47 years old, getting a divorce, and have a 4 year old daughter.  What am I to do?  Too old to go out, and what woman in her right mind would want a man with all my baggage.  So I am left in this cosmic fog to just be a good daddy for another 18 years and then poof. Im an old bitter man you see in the grocery store.  Cruel? life seems to do that to people. But there is those times of remembering the wonderful times my family shared.  Sorry dear, you cant take that:P
I guess it will be that way until something like Alzheimers comes to take that.  Wow am I in a funky mood today.
when your happy, time seems to go way too fast.  I know most are too busy to even notice those things. The smile from a picked flower, or the rays of the sun shining off her hair.  The smell of a warm house full of love. The joys a baby brings.  Hey just watching her grow for the first nine months makes a daddy proud.
Now what will this week bring?  Time...