Time for change

Seems like Ive turned a corner in my feelings....having nearly killed myself last week,so glad it didn't work..... It has pulled me up fast....made me have a fresh look at my life and decided not to allow family to destroy me,realise for them to change I have to change,in that its no longer an option to treat me like a doormat. Im one for writing lists,which has helped alot.... I guess its all steps toward a positive outlook...  not saying its going to go my way all the time...as I just know someone is waiting with a very large pin to burst my bubble. I will just have to develop a stronger bubble. Maybe mixed with glue or something..... Ive managed to maintain my weight loss during the pagan feast which is something I have never done before.....the adverts on tv really do their job convincing you need to eat mountains of chocolates,pies and anything else that takes your desire... The whole of January I managed to only lose 7lbs..... February is going to be different.....I say to myself....step up on exercise even if it is indoor mountaneering[stair climbing]...every littles helps..... As I cannot go out,and walking is painful I have to come up with alternative ways of exercise which won't kill me...!!!  Ive got 3 months before I see my diabetes consultant and plan to stick to my plan of action....Im no saint....I probably will fall flat on my face soon....but just for today I want to revel in the feel good factor while it lasts. Meanwhile always looking for tips and advice for keeping away from temptation always welcomed.... I found pickled onions[not really a very sexy look] but they stop the chocolate cravings.... Oh how I wish there was a pill that made me slim overnight...Id be first in that queue....