Time for another attitude adjustment....

I just realized I am 2 wks away from the 2 yr mark....on 1-1-10 it will be 2 yrs without compulsive gambling..... Recently, I crossed a hurdle in my debt recovery....and somehow I thought everything would be easy afterward.....but it seems I still have far to go.  Business has slowed down, and I am struggling to make ends meet, pay basic bills, and just make payroll!  I find myself disappointed and resentful that I'm not on easy street after 2 yrs of struggle..... I need a big attitude adjustment!  I don't know why I thought things would just suddenly be so much easier....I hadn't anticipated the slowdown in business.....sigh.....but I don't want to sink into depression over this.... It seems a good look at where I would be now if I hadn't worked so hard over the last 2 yrs is needed....I would probably in bankruptcy....probably having lost my business. I need to realize I have changed my life, I have made progress....even if I still have far to go! I need to be thankful for what I have....and realize I have no right to expect life to just become easy, for the struggle to be over. If I am able to truly face my challenges, and make a plan....there is hope.  I need to accept the need to keep working hard.  The problem I am having is from NOT accepting having to work as hard as I have been. So OK....today I will set aside the feelings of defeat, of resentment, of despair.  I will start again from the place where I am willing to do whatever it takes, as long as it takes....and I will make a realistic plan. What I need is to reconnect with my strength, with my hope, and my friends.  Thanks to anyone reading this for spending your time supporting me.