Time for a spiritual change of direction to a new religion

Don't know who I am anymore spirituality speaking. I'm sooo tried of getting attacked left and right from all directions from Christians thinking they know it all and have the power and authority to judge one! I know what yall are going to say and before u do i know it - ( its not about other christians and their wrong doings its about the relationship w Jesus ) BUT ive been soo many situations where ppl around me affected one relationship just like mentioned above and it did have an negative effect which caused the relationship 2 end! Ive seen this thru my whole life and even the one im in now is weaken by a few ppl that put their judging,  negative thoughts and actions which resulted in weakening the relationship which is baring holding up!!! I just want to get away from Christianity from all this negative vibes and everything that came w it. I honestly don't feel like I ever fit into Christianity at all but was forced at one point of my life to go to church even tho I was old enough to say no. I feel like I belong to a different religion maybe pagan, Wiccan , Zen Buddhism or maybe a light worker, Reiki healing or maybe something more nature bound like the native American Indians since I am a Blackfoot. As a child I've always been drawn to nature in some spiritual sense but why and how I dont know.  Im seriously done w Christianity SOO done w it!!!! Ive been attacked too many times for wayyyyyyyyy to long and to only be told excuses and lies for the others that did this to me just to cover up their actions and dont get disciplined for their actions !?!?! Really seriously nope thats not how one to be a christian is but then again WHO am I TO KNOW THAT since I dont fit in.