Time flies

I can't believe how long it has been since I have been on here. So much has happened and yet so much remains the same. Since my last post I have had a 3rd surgery on my back bringing the total of spine surgeries to 8. Yuk. My pain has continually gotten worse and can no longer work. I am on a long acting morphine derivative and short acting one for breakthrough pain. My grandchildren count is up to 6 and is the only thing that gives me pleasure. I have been diagnosed with arachnoiditis which is a progressive incurable nerve condition and last week I fractured a rib. I have no friends as they all abandoned me when I stopped working. I am still living with Joe(wow 13 years). Although he is very good to me sensitivity is not his strong suit. My daughters (40 and 36) do try to understand but can't fully understand my situation. I am alone. I am surrounded by family and am lonely. Depression should be my middle name since it is with me all the time. I do feel like I am rambling but can't stop. I guess I am miserable with the never ending rib pain and needed to write my feelings down. 
I will visit again soon. Bye