Time flys

well am back..this journaling always gives my comfort..and when things are bothering me, here I am..giggled a bit.. that I havent been on here for a whole year. but as I sitt writing this my bf dad is here visitng and yes they went hunting agian ..a year gone by, but am at the same place different year.. well in this year lots have happen. Am now working two jobs to pay the morage..still w/ the same man and lots of advistity's I have over come. Just lost my half bother from cancer, but that set off a bunch of events I didnt care to be a part of.. U see he was estanged from us after mother died 25 years now. He just disappeared off the face of the earth..Yes he was into drug and booze living a careless life. Well we heard he had been in Montana all these years and two years ago got clean and found GOD again..good for him..in the meantime he gets in touch with us girls and we are to be forgiving..right. forgive and forget..!I didnt. (my son was in prision for 10 years and I didnt wash his feet) why would I do it with him.. Well the dignoises was colin cancer stage 4. Yikes. When he found out I wouldnt  make it for the surgery..He called bitched me out told me things that made me sad, not understanding my feelings and situation..just being his self center self..Last words where " well I guess Ill see you at my funeral.."  now that set presents of the turning of events. now...My sisters and other family have no contact with me. Brian passed two weeks ago and I was told by my twin sister I was not welcome and dont show up..so I didnt go..no regrets though and you just have to make it right in your own heart..
Grandkids are doing well..My twin g-kids graduated this year and my great grandaughter turned a  year..life is good and
all is well glad to be HOME..again with my DS friends..