tired
well i am back and still here. lately i have been feeling so, so tired. very depressed for some unknown reason. it seems that i am caring so much onto my body. i tried to sleep drunk every night but it does not work. i drink and sleep empty stomach and around 2 and 3 get up and then cant sleep at all. I am started to feel so lonely as i feel that i am lost all in my life and started to loose myself. I just cant any sleep at all. All my friends at work are trying to cheer me up but i dont know what is wrong with me. i dont want to go out and do anything any more. I dont nderstnd why this has started to happening to me now. I wish i can take that brain out and stamp on it until it desapeared. I love reading books and listening to nice and music but i ant even open a book at all. life is being so horrible to me. I am thinking of taking hard drugs on but i dont want to go back to that life any more. it took my life to get out of that stuff. i like to live a normal life easy and relax. I have started to turn into my dick head, but i dont want to be like that. i hate him, hate him, i cant get over him. i wish my life is normal, some time i feel like ending it, but then i think that is not the i should think. my life is so empty and lonely. i cant believe that i am accutally a lonely person on this planet, while having all these friends arround.that is al for now, will be back later
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I felt like that before! I actually tried it but if it\'s not your time you will be treated like a crazy person! I started reading the bible for strength and the stories! It\'s hard but we can do it! I can tell you that drinks or drugs won\'t stop the pain but I tell you if you just try to pray. You will make it and so will I! Sometimes it\'s tough but we can overcome. There is a rainbow at the end of this storm and you can see it if you push your way through! My husband is a bastard and I really hate him which is not of God! But God know our innermost hearts. Hang in there and we will make it through I promise you!
oh honey I am just so sorry you feel like this. Please dont go on the hard drugs again, I know you wont - I hope you wont? it is extraordinary how someone can feel so lonely amongst so many people, isnt it. I do know that feeling but luckily not now - just thinking of you very much right at the moment....lots of love to you....CathrynnXXX