Thursday-May 22nd ,2008

Today is my day off and it really is my late fathers day off.Daddy got a job in the post office when he was 43 years old.He was the oldest person in the office but he had 98 on that test.Daddy was real smart.We all worked back then.My Mother was a cashier for the A and P.Daddy worked in the post office.Frank worked as a presser in a factory and Stanley was going to college.Stanley won a scholarship to Seton Hall.He attended college when he was just 17 years old.This was unheard of in the 1950s but he did not really want to leave home.My father was so unlike half of the men of the 1950s.One day,Mother called and she had to work nights.It was just so different then.While guess what? I call home from school and there was Daddy in the kitchen! My father did something men did not do back then,he made ice cream! In the oven,he and Grandpa made lasagna and Frank come home with the bread.Men did not cook back in the 1950s but Daddy and mother just brought the house.It was a very happy time and I am just so miserable with Brad.I do not love Brad anymore.In fact,I never did.In fact,I will repeat what noted serial killer John Gacy said before he died,he said that he never was in love and this is what has happened to me.I have never been in love ,but I love a great deal of people.I wish that I had the closeness but at my age..it is not possible.I also have grand mal seizures and am on medication.I have been on medication for the past 55 years and this is why I have never travelled like i wanted to.The other countries that I have read about do not have any of the medication that I take and I refuse to go to England and get sick there.This is why I travel here.There is no place like this country.Our country is beautiful.There are so much to see and do.I did ask the doctor about something that I had to stop doing because of money problems..I would like to ride a horse again.Anyone who is mean to a horse is a nothing but a rotten no good SOB and anyone who harms a horse should be taken out in the wilderness and spanked.Horses were our transportation and in some parts of the country they still are.I do not know anything about horses but if anyone here has or knows of a dude ranch in seattle or Montana that is cheap let me know.And I would like to have this ranch not to have a phone please.I want just to relax.ANd I would like some of that chili that the late John Wayne made from scratch.I love chili..but the cans are terrible.I love chili from scratch and I also love those big loaves of bread---guess in seattle..I cannot get the following foods.Chili dogs,Italian bread and Spumoni ice cream.Anyone who knows how to even make ice cream please e mail me and let me know.I want my ice cream!