Thursday, June 19, 2008

Hi Everyone,  I'm not really happy today.  I'm struggling with my work to make ends meet.  My husband is trying to use money to manipulate me into going up to Pennsylvania this fall for a visit. I think it's a trap. He knows I want a divorce and has called me a few choice names. Along with calling my family a few choice names, he's tried to feed me the same bull he did when he was still around. For the past 2 years, I've been the only one working to pay all the bills, including the home mortgage. and barely having money left for food. He has done nothing to find work, except rely on the home computer to find him a job. The car has been sitting for a year under the carport, needing repairs. Little did I know it was still functional to get me around town. It's under my name now, and with the help of some good people, I was able to get it back on the road.  It still needs repairs, but I'm working on that, plus trying to make my way toward a divorce. I never thought I'd be at this point in my life. But after a lot of thinking, praying, crying, and soul-searching, I believe God wants me to start a new life and learn to become independent. At least more independent than I am. I'm learning to take care of myself in ways I never knew I could before. It's rough at times, but I have a lot of people who support my choices and love me. Well, that's where I am today. Would like to hear from anyone out there who may be going through the same thing as me. Thanks. Mona