Thursday, February 25, 2010
Completed my assignments.
New friends: Cathy from DS and Patty from high school (haven't seen her in 37 years so she counts as new).
New hobby: joining my town's reserve police force (God help me and them!) and signed up to work on a political campaign. Don't even know the judge that's running but a friend says she's great and it's something new.
Do I feel better yet? Nope. Keep putting myself out there, giving it the old college try but it's really work.
Joined match.com and had 2 meet and greets and 1 phone meet. Phone meet was so boring I had to get up off the bed to keep from falling asleep. First meet and greet was a disappointment; second was nice but he was a cosmetic dentist with a nail thing going on. Learned more about Olympic pin collecting and swapping than any human being should ever know. Found a fellow Jimmy Buffett fan but he's 2 hours away -- but we're going to be e-mail buddies off match.com. It's depressing how many people, both men and women are out there searching.
On the good side, I've found a home. I've been living in "our" house (he moved out) and I have until October to find something but thought I would start now. It's a townhouse and so absolutely perfect I can't stand it. Realtor is putting together an offer while I review the prospectus (homeowner's assocation rules and such). Scary, but not as scary as buying a house. All outdoor items and services are taken care of. Just have to close the door and leave. I think it will be important for me to get out of this house. I feel like I'm in limbo.
I still wake up anxious every single morning. It just won't go away. I hope this is not my new normal because I don't like it at all. I'm 6 months into this and although I've progressed, I'm nowhere near being healed.
New friends: Cathy from DS and Patty from high school (haven't seen her in 37 years so she counts as new).
New hobby: joining my town's reserve police force (God help me and them!) and signed up to work on a political campaign. Don't even know the judge that's running but a friend says she's great and it's something new.
Do I feel better yet? Nope. Keep putting myself out there, giving it the old college try but it's really work.
Joined match.com and had 2 meet and greets and 1 phone meet. Phone meet was so boring I had to get up off the bed to keep from falling asleep. First meet and greet was a disappointment; second was nice but he was a cosmetic dentist with a nail thing going on. Learned more about Olympic pin collecting and swapping than any human being should ever know. Found a fellow Jimmy Buffett fan but he's 2 hours away -- but we're going to be e-mail buddies off match.com. It's depressing how many people, both men and women are out there searching.
On the good side, I've found a home. I've been living in "our" house (he moved out) and I have until October to find something but thought I would start now. It's a townhouse and so absolutely perfect I can't stand it. Realtor is putting together an offer while I review the prospectus (homeowner's assocation rules and such). Scary, but not as scary as buying a house. All outdoor items and services are taken care of. Just have to close the door and leave. I think it will be important for me to get out of this house. I feel like I'm in limbo.
I still wake up anxious every single morning. It just won't go away. I hope this is not my new normal because I don't like it at all. I'm 6 months into this and although I've progressed, I'm nowhere near being healed.
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