Thursday, February 25, 2010

Completed my assignments. 
 New friends: Cathy from DS and Patty from high school (haven't seen her in 37 years so she counts as new).
New hobby:  joining my town's reserve police force (God help me and them!) and signed up to work on a political campaign.  Don't even know the judge that's running but a friend says she's great and it's something new.
Do I feel better yet?  Nope.  Keep putting myself out there, giving it the old college try but it's really work. 
Joined match.com and had 2 meet and greets and 1 phone meet.  Phone meet was so boring I had to get up off the bed to keep from falling asleep.  First meet and greet was a disappointment; second was nice but he was a cosmetic dentist with a nail thing going on.  Learned more about Olympic pin collecting and swapping than any human being should ever know.  Found a fellow Jimmy Buffett fan but he's 2 hours away -- but we're going to be e-mail buddies off match.com.  It's depressing how many people, both men and women are out there searching.
On the good side, I've found a home.  I've been living in "our" house (he moved out) and I have until October to find something but thought I would start now.  It's a townhouse and so absolutely perfect I can't stand it.  Realtor is putting together an offer while I review the prospectus (homeowner's assocation rules and such).  Scary, but not as scary as buying a house.  All outdoor items and services are taken care of.  Just have to close the door and leave.  I think it will be important for me to get out of this house.  I feel like I'm in limbo.
I still wake up anxious every single morning.  It just won't go away.  I hope this is not my new normal because I don't like it at all.  I'm 6 months into this and although I've progressed, I'm nowhere near being healed. 
 

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MsTerey
MsTerey

Hey... you are doing well and 6 months into this is the clue. That is not a long time ago. Be prepared for the ups and the downs, because that is life, whether you are divorced, married, single whatever. Take that negative so many people searching and turn that into a positive.. that means that the more there are out there, the more there are to pick from. My statement, there are millions of men out there! Take some time, maybe dating is not quite it yet, establish woman friends, do what you want! The anxiety, have you thought of getting checked out and see if you need something.. me not so big on meds, but I took some during the divorce and I really learned to recognize what anxiety was, something I had never had, and do not have now. Hang in there! HUG HUG
trisha9054
trisha9054

It\'s been two years since my divorce. 19 months before that when I had the ex served. I\'m still having that roller coaster someitmes. Just be patient you will get where you think you should be. Time, time and more time is all you need.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Love the new pad..Did you get it.?? Great price..I wish I knew where I was financially..Oh, well, another month and nothing done..
GeocacherNY
GeocacherNY

takes time, keep on keeping on ;)
deleted_user
deleted_user

Big hugs. You are moving forward!!!! Congrats onthe new home (maybe, almost). Good news. And Thank you for commenting on my journal.
CowgirlKathi
CowgirlKathi

You say \" It\'s depressing how many people, both men and women are out there searching.\" Hey, I would say that\'s GOOD NEWS....more to choose from! I hope the deal for the townhouse comes through for you. I sometimes think I\'ve had enough of all this \"Frannie FarmOwner\" crap...but am not sure I could ever live so close to other people after being out here in major privacy for 21 years! Keep moving forward, my friend. I am very proud of you today!
hurtinandhealin2560
hurtinandhealin2560

Yes, moving forward is work--I remember saying that very same thing when I was at the six month mark of separation. The transition from married life to single life does require effort, but the rewards are great. When I look back now at my married life, I can\'t believe how boring it was~lol! We did the same things over and over again. Never again.

Congrats on the house, go slow on the dating. I\'m on the sites too--pretty dismal. But I am accepting that I don\'t need a man in my life to be happy.

Good luck, keep moving forward.
GeocacherNY
GeocacherNY

6 months is not a new normal, it\'s an adjustment period; nobody said it would be easy, but forward motion is good
deleted_user
deleted_user

Good for you, I am so very proud of you and you know that you\'re AWESOME!

Don\'t shoot anyone!