Thursday December 23, 2010

Today I recievded a call from the doctor.  I was surprised the doctor, usually the nurse calls.  The lab results SLE Lupus, Mixed Connective Tissue, polymyositis and ???  I see the rheummie January 31st, 2011.  She is mailing me the results so I have them.  Then I will find out the name of the fourth one. So I will add that to the Fibromyalgia and Chronis Fatigue Syndrome.  Wow all this information and no one to understand me here.  I do not want to hear I get pains too, I know what your feeling, you look fine, you don't look like you are in pain, exercise you'll feel better, why are you still wearing that, if you just went to bed early, stop eating that, its just the fibro, you can just take lyrica..it says it helps people with fibro, they show old people why are yo uso young? your just lazy and don't want to work, you were just fine yesterday.  No you do not know unless you have had it or have it!  I am not disabled cause I am fat.  Are you disabled for your stupidity? I have to just wanna cry and stay in my room but I can't.  I have 2 boys that need me and if I don't no one will.  I don't want my kids to be scared about my diagnosis, but yet I cannot do it alone.  I need help ..from them=(