thursday: bummer day
went to my FM meeting. it was a no show. i don't know if that's because of what happened 2 weeks ago when i had to cancel it. i'm not sure what happened today. i gotta get a better word out about us. maybe more flayers all over the island. also went to the VA today and let's just say it was a frustrating long day that i feel was a bunch of wasted time. i spoke to my bro that lives with us and told him that he gotta get a better paying job cuz i can't keep covering portions that he doesn't. he got mad and threw some attitude at me like it's my fault that he should get a different job, like it's my fault he can't cover ALL his portions of cost of living. i'm sick of covering it and it drains me. he is 25 and shouldn't be this way. anyway...thanks so much everyone! you all are right, i do need to slow down and yes i do have a list. i write everything down in my daily planner. every day has a box for "to do" list and another box for "appts" to list. so ya, the boxes fill up and i tend to run out of space. maybe that's why i have been freakin out. a lot of good change is coming, but in order to get there it takes work. and i think that's what i'm dreading, all the work it requires. not the time it takes, but the manual labor that will go into it. i just had to write this down cuz i was having a bit of a panic. but i will try to slow down and pace myself. thanks so much for the encouragement!! love you all!
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YOU SHOULD TAKE IT EASIER ON YOURSELF. YOU HAVE PLENTY TO WORRY ABOUT. AS FOR YOUR BROTHER, HE SHOULD PAY FOR HIS FAIR SHARE. I KEEP MY OWN HOME GOING ALL BY MY LONESOME.
Take care of you my friend.Take time for you each day too.A little time to unwind and relax is so important.Your brother should be paying his share.You can\'t do it all!Hugs...Lesa
Your bro definitely should be paying his share - financial stress is not a good thing to be adding to the mix.
Just take your time - it will all work out.
Have you heardof a positive sandwich? Well, you do or write some thing that pleases you, then you write or do something that upsets you then you write or do someting that pleases you again. All that garbage that upsets you is on the inside. Love, Peace Serenity and hug to you and yours Judi
Kiddo! Bro needs to man up--more money...less stress--it\'s only fair! And I see you are at least taking our advice about slowing down the pace. No worries about the FM group--they\'ll start coming--you\'ve done what you can...it will all settle down and work out. I don\'t usually throw biblical quotes around, but this one\'s up on my fridge as my hubby cut it out of a magazine and said \"read this and live it, babe!\" (As I have made myself INSANE worrying about so much going on with my parents and my nut-job family members, for a year and half and I am about the \"sickest\" I have ever been in my life, I can almost foresee when someone like me can get sick from it too--I DON\"T want that for you!!) ...it goes like this \"Who of you by worrying can add a single moment to your life span? If the smallest things are beyond your power, why be anxious about the rest?\" Luke 12:25
For what it\'s worth, I have to remind myself all the time..\".less stress, less anxiety...means less illness!!\" and believe me, I am slowly regaining my strength, & reducing my symptoms...--it\'s been 8 LONG months--anxiety will cripple you--so, please, let some shit roll off your back, kiddo--trust me.... !!...okay? okay! ..warm hugs, rabbit
Yeah, what the bunny up there said! Your bro should be thankful you let him stay with you, the least he can do is keep up with his share, stress is fucked up! Take care of yourself and if you try to take a break, I will too!!! Hang in there :o)