Thursday....

I didn't go to my meeting today. I just couldn't get everything in.... 

I went to my aunt's to sew for a few hours. I am finally making the mug rugs. They are turning out very cute. I had to run to the library and print out a label. I went to the Dollar Tree and picked up a package to return some Croc shoes. I went to the Sonic and got myself an iced tea... then to the park and walked a mile and a half. I jogged 3x. So I am tired. 

But this a.m. MM called and i can tel she is "expecting" me to be there this weekend... I texted my brother and he said the same thing. He said he will be "in trouble" if we don't show. I know. I felt the same stress... I've been having to hand it over to Spirit. 

Sometimes I just tell Spirit to deal w/ it for me ... bc I know I can't. I'm not in control. 

That happed at hubby's work this week. I asked Spirit to "deal" with this woman that was being really really crappy to him... and guess what... Spirit took care of it.... Vengence belongs to God. Sometimes God can deal w/ ppl in a much different way and we come out smelling like roses . The truth is revealed in the end. If I just know in my heart and do the best I can... then I can just let go of how MM has treated me... and let Spirit deal w/ her. Spirit knows how to make the Truth come forth. 

So... ever since that phone call and the "unspoken expectation".... I have dreaded the weekend... so I've been edgy. And I'm tired today for some reason. I'm in bed early. Did yoga and listening to Snatum Kaur and giving it over... 

Oh my Beloved

Kindness of the Heart 

 Breath of Life

O I bow to You

Divine Teacher 

Belonved Friend

I bow to You.... again and again

Lotus sitting on the water

Beyond time and space

This is Your Way.... This is Your Grace

I bow to the Divine Teacher Within....

I bow to the subtle Divine Wisdom...

thank you Spirit. Amen. 

I will go to MM if MB is there... but i do not want to stay the night. Just do not want to. I packed to go alst wkend and she cancelled teh whole thing. It's just not .... well... life isn't fair. 

But God is.... 

Namaste . G