Thoughts for today
Last week, my mind was on teenage pregnancies and the children born from them.
This week, my mind is focused on being an adult survivor of child abuse and neglect.
It has been since January 3, 2013 that I last heard from my biological mother. When I talked to her last I expressed how I felt and saw things. She sent an email dismissing and minimizing whatever I had wanted to discuss and walked out of my life.
Fast Forward 2 months and it feels like I left behind a bad job and I no longer accept nor dwell in the role of scapegoat. It feels like I shed my skin and I am seeing my self worth and self love return after not having any contact with my bio family at all.
Right now, it seems like I no longer exist for them. I died from their lives and their absence has greatly improved the quality of my life.
I know that my bio family has had a very negative impact on my life, leaving my somewhat impaired. Now I have been in therapy on and off for two decades now having to really put in some hard pain hours to work through my issues and unlearning what happened to me. I am at the point where I want to examine how this negative impact shows up in my life.
TBC
Since the start of this year, I have been doing vlogs instead of journaling and speaking my thoughts, and I like that better.
Today I did two vlogs on what I am thinking about today.
This week, my mind is focused on being an adult survivor of child abuse and neglect.
It has been since January 3, 2013 that I last heard from my biological mother. When I talked to her last I expressed how I felt and saw things. She sent an email dismissing and minimizing whatever I had wanted to discuss and walked out of my life.
Fast Forward 2 months and it feels like I left behind a bad job and I no longer accept nor dwell in the role of scapegoat. It feels like I shed my skin and I am seeing my self worth and self love return after not having any contact with my bio family at all.
Right now, it seems like I no longer exist for them. I died from their lives and their absence has greatly improved the quality of my life.
I know that my bio family has had a very negative impact on my life, leaving my somewhat impaired. Now I have been in therapy on and off for two decades now having to really put in some hard pain hours to work through my issues and unlearning what happened to me. I am at the point where I want to examine how this negative impact shows up in my life.
TBC
Since the start of this year, I have been doing vlogs instead of journaling and speaking my thoughts, and I like that better.
Today I did two vlogs on what I am thinking about today.
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