Thoughts During the night

I woke up at 4:00 am and thoughts of what exactly happened with my daughter kept going over and over in my head.  I kept going through conversations and events trying to figure out exactly when all this started and what I did or didn't do to keep this from happening.  This is a situation that I didn't see coming until it was upon me.  It caused me alot of tears and anxiety.  I love that child so much and never would have thought I would be in this situation.  It is such a betrayal by someone I love so much.  It really has shaken my view of the world and things that I have always thought were true for me.  One of them being if you love your children and try to teach them good values they will turn out to be loving adults.  They would have some caring feelings toward you too and not want you to suffer because of their actions.  I felt that no one or nothing could ever change that, because nothing could change the way I feel about my daughter.