Thoughts

Pretty sure that anxiety & depression is the root cause, once the body found something that released the feel good hormones & take away the anxiety & depression even for a short period of time it got hooked.  I've found a lot of people use there vices as a coping mechanism, way to numb the pain / hurt etc... but if they could sort out the underlying cause they probably wouldn't actually give into their vices and have more self-control. I'm hoping that medication will help, balance everything out, make me feel better so there's no need to dive in to sin to get temporary relief. I guess all addictions are basically the same, hope that medication can get me to a place when Jesus & the Holy Spirit can really start working & I'll be able to resist temptation when it comes & resist so much that it stops coming - I'll be rejoicing when that day comes, to be truly free from lust & enjoy people in a pure way, like God & the angels do.