This week
I blinked and the weekend was over. I was planning on doing some instacarting however it wasnt busy so so much for putting acorns back.
I didnt manage to get anything done. I did go look at apartments again. After running the numbers its going to take more money just to move. I have to figure worse case scernario 1500 for the deposit plus 300 pet deposit plus 1st months rent. Atleast 3000 or more. I only have 1400 saved and have been doing without cept for a couple 20.00 night camp trips. Why do they make it so hard for people?
I guess I should wait for my blood results to come bacck and see the dr at the end of the month who will order the mammogram. I may be staying where Im at but hate having to sign another years lease here. Id be stuck once again. If all the results come back ok, I am prepared to sleep in my car till I have enough money saved. Im just surprised my doctor would not order a mammogram especially when i told her i had pain. Im frustrated. What if this 3 or 4 weeks would have made a difference?
Ive decided to detach from things even more. I continue to skirt the questions of my personal life from people who ask. Roomie continues to be unmotivated in this relationship-itll be interesting to see what he does when I tell him Im leaving. If be throws a fit I am inclined to tell him he has no right to be upset. When was the last time he was motivated to work at this relationship? When was the last time he planned something romantic? Never once. Im done doing all the work. He seems to get upset only when he thinks theres someone else or if Im leaving but thats all. I guess I need to get around for work. Enjoy your day!
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What if you signed the lease and just broke it once you are financially ready to move? You just wouldn’t get back a deposit but people break leases all the time because of job changes and they have to relocate to another city, they buy a house etc. That way the pressure is off of you and you can take more time to get your money squared away.
If he throws a fit, so be it. You don’t have to say anything in response to his fit throwing. Technically, he has a right be upset because everyone is entitled to their feelings, even him, so I would just let him be upset without trying to over explain yourself. He must have some clue you aren’t happy so would it really come as a shocker to him?
I'm still trying to identify The They who keeps making life so difficult for the rest of us.
! ! !Well trump ^it^ all! ! !
Steadying support while you work the challenge. Who wrote these freakin' rules, anyway? Prolly the same They that keeps making my life so miserable. Can I **Just Say NO?"
Steadying support while **I** work the challenge? Sigh. . . Am I sane yet?
Arfie,
I take full responsibility for my situation. A lot of bad decisions.
RMB, Integrity has me finish this lease out till May. I won't sign another lease unless I absolutely have to. I'm not shouldering him with the burden of paying the entire rent because I decide to up and leave. That would not be fair. I just have to figure it out.
If he doesn’t see it coming and you’ve not been having discussions with him along, that is unfair. But living in your car in the name of integrity... that’s seems unreasonable. There are women with kids living out of their cars because they truly have no choice. You have a choice.
I know you are just trying to work through the problem and figure out your options. Hope things become more manageable.