This side of anger

  I just read a disscussion about resentment over the change in my life with thyis pain. I found myseld very angery at my ability to take care of my house, scrub my counters or my shoulder swells up , mop the messey 4 kids been walking around on with food floors. Dig my pond , work in my back yard, clean my porches, fix a fence to keep my dog from getting taken to the pound. Then I accepting what I can not do for myself. Then Iv been thru the stage where I realized I had to stop being mad at my husband for not jumping up /or getting up at all to do alll the things I can not do for myself. And give it to God. I felt a little better then We got the dxs, that all my symtoms are from a very real painfull desease. So I thought oh my husband will love me and be more sympathetic to my disability. But instead He acts angry at the world at me .I feel he resents me so badly. I know He has not been attracted to me since the lyrica wieght gain, but now there is no intamacy ever!!!!!! Even my children are angry at all that they have to do also. Now I am in pain phyiscally and emotionally.