this part right here, i use to hate, but its the best decision , i had to make :)
Its not everyday you get a public holiday on a Tuesday and just because youre a woman :) So everybody, HAPPy WoMENS DAy on 9 August :) LOL :) I made great use of this day . Spending time with my lil munchkin, even when she looked so bored on the mechanical horse. Guess its just not the same after she rode a real horse all on her own on Grandad's farm :)- was the highlight of the day :)
but the evening is where i really used my womeness to the max, making use of the last couple of hours i had, encouriging me on the strong women i am (called a shewolf ;) ) .....i invited Chris over. Yes , for dinner( a casual one) and yes, to our new burrow. Felt soo weird since we were together for , well almost 5 years. But i neeeeeeded to get this sorted and kinda finalised. I neeeeeded to tell him, i am much happier being where i am now. and i dont want to move back to you and the life we had. and im sorry. I had to forgive him, and me. I felt peace in my heart. LIke these schacles came right off :)
I must say, i am proud of him. He mentioned he stopped smoking for 5 days now and admitted having a alcohol problem. well done !! seriously. I am so proud of him as Tianna's dad :) I know now she will be able to look up to him now and i will feel he is doing that bit to bring her up:)
but for now, well, i am just happy :) I have come to know awesome people :) they just brighten my day. AND am just as happy as i am for the end of the month operation ;) ---that is still a secret ;)
lol so otherwise thanx everyone for youre amayzing support :) DS is a visible blessing and the people on here have just these amayzing hearts of Gold :) i just know , everything will be ok now :)I know where i want to be :) and i am my ole self again :) Before it was too late :) Dont ever stop fighting for happiness. You have the key to unlocking your hapiness, meaning, only you know, what wil trully make you haapy, so do everything you can to be happy :)
Hope someone gave you a smile today aswell :)
xxxxxxx
but the evening is where i really used my womeness to the max, making use of the last couple of hours i had, encouriging me on the strong women i am (called a shewolf ;) ) .....i invited Chris over. Yes , for dinner( a casual one) and yes, to our new burrow. Felt soo weird since we were together for , well almost 5 years. But i neeeeeeded to get this sorted and kinda finalised. I neeeeeded to tell him, i am much happier being where i am now. and i dont want to move back to you and the life we had. and im sorry. I had to forgive him, and me. I felt peace in my heart. LIke these schacles came right off :)
I must say, i am proud of him. He mentioned he stopped smoking for 5 days now and admitted having a alcohol problem. well done !! seriously. I am so proud of him as Tianna's dad :) I know now she will be able to look up to him now and i will feel he is doing that bit to bring her up:)
but for now, well, i am just happy :) I have come to know awesome people :) they just brighten my day. AND am just as happy as i am for the end of the month operation ;) ---that is still a secret ;)
lol so otherwise thanx everyone for youre amayzing support :) DS is a visible blessing and the people on here have just these amayzing hearts of Gold :) i just know , everything will be ok now :)I know where i want to be :) and i am my ole self again :) Before it was too late :) Dont ever stop fighting for happiness. You have the key to unlocking your hapiness, meaning, only you know, what wil trully make you haapy, so do everything you can to be happy :)
Hope someone gave you a smile today aswell :)
xxxxxxx
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