This Month

So I can honestly say it has been more than one month since I have broke down and cried for the MC we had in January.  Next month is going to be hard as that would be my due date.  I don't really know what to say about this month.  My 2ww ends next Wednesday but it really was not a good month for trying.  My husband started a new job so we don't have insurance till the 22nd of this month.  We could use Cobra but it's 1k out of pocket just for using it.  So I had my appt at the RE's office the end of June.  I had one follie that was looking good but my linning (like always) was on the thin side.  She didn't want to start me on Estrogen as I would not have insurance and would not be able to come in to get a trigger shot.  So I am basically on my own this month. She told me to start my ovulation kit to see if I would ovulate this month.  I started taking Vitamin B-6 200mg because that is one of the natural ways to thicken a linning.  I also broke down and ordered Fertility Blend.  I am not on fertility meds at the moment so I thought why not, it couldn't hurt.  So maybe that will work.  Back to my story.  I had an LH surge on Wednesday the 1st of July so I called the RE and they told me to BD that night and 48 hours later.  So we did BD but 48 hours later was not happening.  We went camping for the 4th of July and when I am ovulating DH and I sleep out side in a tent because how awkward is that to sleep inside my parents 5th wheel and try to BD.  Not only with my parents but our 5 y/o as well.  So my parents bought a tent for us which I am very thankful for.  So that night which was the third of July Emery got sick in the evening and started vomiting.  My mom kept telling me to go out with my husband to the tent so we could do our thing and then come back and tend to Emy.  Well when your child is sick they really don't want anybody besides mommy.  Not only that but I am supposed to lay flat on my back for an hour after we BD.  So that night was a no go.  I told DH we would have some "alone time" the next morning.  My parents said they would take Emy on a walk for us the next day so we could have our "alone time".  So then we head into Saturday morning the 4th of July.  Every thing is going great till about 10 in the morning I go hoping no running down the stairs of my parents steep camper steps and land on the outside of my L ankle.  Can I just say PAIN!!!  I thought I was going to die!  I just started crying and could not get up to walk to the couch.  My dad wrapped it an ace bandage and I elevated it for about an hour.  My dad came back in to look at it and when he unwrapped it my ankle was huge and basically black and blue.  He told me I should probably go to the ER.  So off we were in the middle of nowhere to the ER.  Of course I don't have any insurance at this time so we have to use Cobra and pay the 1k.  Luckily it was not broken but I did tear the tendon on the out side of my ankle.  He put me in a cast "yes a cast"  and sent me on my way with a px of Vicodin and Naproxen.  So the 4th was not much fun and we didn't even get to BD that day because of the pain I was in.  So, for this month we are going on just one night of BDing and truly hopping that is enough.  I know it could happen but the chances are slim.  I know it just takes one time but if we could have had two or three more times for more of the little swimmers are odds would be better.  Sorry this story was so long.  I just had to vent.  Next month will be better! :)  Baby Dust!