This life or the next?
Don't tell me for one fucking second that you wish you could be one of those people that were comfortable in their own skin... Those angelic humans don't actually exist. Mind you, in a more literal sense, I do peel my skin off. I don't know what it is about peeling off semi dead skin, but fuck it's like Codone, euphoric in every sense of the word.
You know what the best bit is, I wear makeup, fake tan, false eyelashes... not to look like a dirty whore, More of an Amy Winehouse look I guess, which sort of fits me perfectly as I can act as disturbed as I want without making everyone uncomfortable.
Whilst I have a dissociation personality disorder, my self escape and therapy is to spin together my look with a bit of cleavage and a dark surly attitude.
You could call me a depressed motherfucker with a bit of eccentric input every 15 minutes or so. But for me, that's why I like people.. It's not hard to pretend by using a distraction against not only your friends, but also yourself. I have 5000 different opinions, I don't really know which ones are actually mine. So I literally Just go with where the attention is headed.
I don't know what or who I am, I just have the same judgmental opinions as everyone else around me.
To those around me, I am a sheep. A sheep that has some sort of extreme hatred towards their herd. I am the sheep that will headbutt you in the stomach until your intestines come out if you make me uncomfortable.
You know what the best bit is, I wear makeup, fake tan, false eyelashes... not to look like a dirty whore, More of an Amy Winehouse look I guess, which sort of fits me perfectly as I can act as disturbed as I want without making everyone uncomfortable.
Whilst I have a dissociation personality disorder, my self escape and therapy is to spin together my look with a bit of cleavage and a dark surly attitude.
You could call me a depressed motherfucker with a bit of eccentric input every 15 minutes or so. But for me, that's why I like people.. It's not hard to pretend by using a distraction against not only your friends, but also yourself. I have 5000 different opinions, I don't really know which ones are actually mine. So I literally Just go with where the attention is headed.
I don't know what or who I am, I just have the same judgmental opinions as everyone else around me.
To those around me, I am a sheep. A sheep that has some sort of extreme hatred towards their herd. I am the sheep that will headbutt you in the stomach until your intestines come out if you make me uncomfortable.
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I think your pretty cool!
I\'m not, my life is like a story book. Im just the author analyzing the characters.
But thanks all the same (:
im glad you joined MPD group...it has helped me a lot
i think it was very cool as well. i too have DID/MPD.. and also i dont like therapist in any way. i have had about 100 therapist since like 13yrs ago when it started for me, now that i have none, i have improved more. hope you find
good things on this support group, i did. we are not all the same but there is a chance u will enjoy your visits. hope to hear more of you
Therapists might as well be irritable bears if you ask me, well... thats how much they make me feel like my life could be given a fucking break for even 30 minutes by avoiding them as much as possible.