this life
It seriously is a shame...when Death is what you look forward to in this lifetime. I'm not suicidal but the thought of when it actually is my time to go is a happiness for me. I have seem enough heartache and experienced enough of my own pain that I am just tired, and tired of doing it all. My life has unbelievably become a burden to most I feel and I feel like I am crawling out of my skin on most days. One of my deepest secrets is when I wake in the morning I am extremely disappointed to live another day.
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Hello findingme77, I just read your journal titled \"This Life\". And I can tell that you\'re truly experiencing a lot of emotional pain which is understandable. Because the death of a close relative or friend is the most traumatic situation for anyone to go through in our lives. My friend all you can do is take on everyday slowly don\'t push yourself to do anything that your heart,mind, body and soul does not want to do. What I always find myself doing is reflect back on the memories of my mother when she was alive. That sometimes I will have tears in my eyes or I will just start crying. I know you still have times you\'ll breakdown crying and that\'s natural because your loss is deep and severe. Which in return,you\'re trying to deal with the reality of it at the same time.findingme77 anytime you feel real down, you continue to reach out to your friends on the Daily Strength website. Because we are always here to support each other through the painful grieving process.
I saw your post on DS and I was going to add you as a friend and try to be here for you and try to help you as much as I can. Then I realized that we were already friends, but we have not talked yet. First I want you to know that I am here for you and I understand your pain and what you are going through. If you want you can read some of my jounals although I have not written any in awhile. I am usually here most weekdays and will respond to messages asap if you chose to message me. You are not alone in this struggle or this life so please feel free to reach out for help!