This just blows!!!!!

Well it was a BFN. My 1st attempt at IVF and I got a BFN!!!  Also I found out that my embies didnt grow, so none could be frozen. So I have to start all over again. I am so disappointed in myself. What the hell did I do wrong. The funny thing was that I felt sick, maybe it was my body playing tricks on me. DH even rubbed the tummy every night & every morning asking them to grow & stick for us. I even got the call before lunch too, and they NEVER call before lunch. My nurse is a sweetheart and was probably like, I just need to get this over with..lol.  It just BLOWS!!!!!!!!!!!