This is it.....

Okay everyone.. if you have read all my Journals.. I have given so much love to Eric. and time, and patience, and understanding, everything you are suppose to do in a relationship.
I have sent him so many e-mails, messages etc. and no reply. I haven't talked to him for 2 days now.. I guess he really doesn't love me.. Maybe he never did..but I thought so. Maybe i was just someone who got him through a hard time. My heart aches for him, and I would never do this to him. I stood beside him through so much ! I listened to him for hours and hours ! I spent time with him, I did everything I was suppose to do!
I know.. I've sent way to many letters to him. He's confused. Well I'm not.. so I guess now is the time to let go. I've fought so hard. he knows how I feel, He knows where I live, and how to contact me. it hurts so much though. Maybe one day I'll get that special call that he wants us back. I don't know..
He is starting a job, so I guess he won't need me anymore. He'll have people to talk to now. But I will sure miss hearing about his days.
I guess he must be seeing someone else, BUT I tell you what? He had me believing that he was serious about us. Through good and bad. Even if we were LDR.s
Life sucks!
 

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winesar21
winesar21

I\'m sorry! I am going through the same exact thing, and somedays it gets better and some days its not. But you will pull through!
blc09
blc09

Thank You for your support. I am always hoping that he will come around and figure it out and not be confused anymore. I know he loves me. I hear it in his voice when he cried. I just hope he isn\'t with anyone else right now, because I know it will confuse him more. we were planning to live together this spring. I am not going to see anyone. I am going to take this time and not be with anyone unless he comes back. everyday /night I keep hoping that this will be the day he calls. I miss his voice. I do have it on my voice messages, so I do listen from time to time. I do wonder if he thinks about me or even misses me. He told me that he is going to keep looking at the Serendipity signs. I don\'t know.. That would be my christmas wish... is to have us back. and happy.. Good luck to you too!
Sabrina15
Sabrina15

Hang in there, Brenda...maybe he just needs time to sort out his feelings. However, if he does continue to ignore you, maybe you should move on. Good Luck!!!

Sabrina