this is still yesterday//ran into one of the other rescue people who is thin again & scathing/fake
ran into one of the other rescue people. annoying as all hell. i waved to her from across the room, (amazing i was able to SEE her without my glasses on) - i seem to have stopped her in her tracks when she saw me, she totally froze while walking (wth?) in her place. wonder what that is about?
this other, lost the rest of the 25 pounds she had gained and looks as skinny as she used to look again even though she is about 41 now. i annoy her because when i'm here in northeast florida, instead of being in south florida - which is still homebase for me -- i make no effort in north florida at all with my appearance and play it as plain as possible - lipcolor only, hair in a top knot, casual clothes, croc shoes. that is what people look like in north florida, in general. but if i'm in miami, i go back to being the real me - or healthier more fashion-conscious me (which is really just being a slave to clothing).
my view is "when in rome, do as the romans do." this "bothers her." she finds it insulting. and i'm like, don't look then. there are a zillion people with the same look (in fact, MOST OF THE PEOPLE, look around miss other) and worse so why the fuck does she care.
also, going around doing the "glam" thing in an area where NO ONE dresses or looks like that, is just trying to bring attention to yourself, which is the last thing i'd want. she says that when she tried the "gain weight thing", she didn't like being one of the crowd and treated the same as everyone else. so she likes being gawked at? her looks are her only asset. fine. that is her choice, but most people get passed that at some point after their 20's and broaden their lives and outlook. wth? then i was talking to mhd and he says, she also lies nonstop about people, and don't believe ANYTHING she says because it will all be fantasy of her's. lnsy used to say the same thing about her. and i just shrugged it off because people say things about others, especially good looking people so often, its easier to just ignore all of it.
i'm thinking. oh great, so all that extra energy she has is what, "spiraling" energy? we found out about that spiralling energy the hard way 12 years ago when she was stalking steve, plus the rest of it. gad! he blamed me for that because i was the one who suggested he date her since she kept calling and had a huge crush on him - FOR YEARS - big mistake. total disaster. and bad advice on my part, but i barely knew what bipolar was back then, even though bda had that and was on lithium for it. so miss other, is she bipolar with schizophrenia, that is where the person thinks their lies about others is real.
she says to mhd, well don't YOU do that [lie all the time] and he's like nooooo. if i don't know something i just say i don't know. and she stares at him all annoyed. what a friggin whacko. she's said the same thing to me, when it comes to customers and then she walks around furious saying, "miss goody two shoes (bda used to use the same words) and he prefers HER to me. its such a bunch of bulshit, everyone lies to everyone."
actually, "everyone" doesn't. and it much easier not to, less to keep track of. no wonder she did so poorly in school, there is no room left in her brain for facts, because she is busy fantasizing lies and trying to recall all those lies. wtf? how about just leave out what you don't want people to know and leave it at that? beautiful looks, but useless, and boy is she going to have a mid life crisas soon, because its amazing her looks have held up at all, especially this long. and when her looks are completely gone, then what? she should read gail sheehy's book "passages" as superficial people like that fit in all the categories in sheehy's book completely. but i don't think she reads for entertainment at all, and i'm not being mean when i say that, i'm just stating a fact.
one of the huge benefits of not having daunting looks or even less, is getting to see people's true colors right away, instead of somewhere down the line. the whole fake-nice thing is totally annoying, and so many people are good at that - good actors, they should all move to hollywood, california. it would suit the actors of real life, they'd be amongst their own.
some people avoid the looks thing even in college, by purposely gaining weight, because they hate all the gawkers. if looks is the only thing the person defines themself with, that is pathetic at 41, its sad enough that goes on on some level in one's teens and 20's.
this other, lost the rest of the 25 pounds she had gained and looks as skinny as she used to look again even though she is about 41 now. i annoy her because when i'm here in northeast florida, instead of being in south florida - which is still homebase for me -- i make no effort in north florida at all with my appearance and play it as plain as possible - lipcolor only, hair in a top knot, casual clothes, croc shoes. that is what people look like in north florida, in general. but if i'm in miami, i go back to being the real me - or healthier more fashion-conscious me (which is really just being a slave to clothing).
my view is "when in rome, do as the romans do." this "bothers her." she finds it insulting. and i'm like, don't look then. there are a zillion people with the same look (in fact, MOST OF THE PEOPLE, look around miss other) and worse so why the fuck does she care.
also, going around doing the "glam" thing in an area where NO ONE dresses or looks like that, is just trying to bring attention to yourself, which is the last thing i'd want. she says that when she tried the "gain weight thing", she didn't like being one of the crowd and treated the same as everyone else. so she likes being gawked at? her looks are her only asset. fine. that is her choice, but most people get passed that at some point after their 20's and broaden their lives and outlook. wth? then i was talking to mhd and he says, she also lies nonstop about people, and don't believe ANYTHING she says because it will all be fantasy of her's. lnsy used to say the same thing about her. and i just shrugged it off because people say things about others, especially good looking people so often, its easier to just ignore all of it.
i'm thinking. oh great, so all that extra energy she has is what, "spiraling" energy? we found out about that spiralling energy the hard way 12 years ago when she was stalking steve, plus the rest of it. gad! he blamed me for that because i was the one who suggested he date her since she kept calling and had a huge crush on him - FOR YEARS - big mistake. total disaster. and bad advice on my part, but i barely knew what bipolar was back then, even though bda had that and was on lithium for it. so miss other, is she bipolar with schizophrenia, that is where the person thinks their lies about others is real.
she says to mhd, well don't YOU do that [lie all the time] and he's like nooooo. if i don't know something i just say i don't know. and she stares at him all annoyed. what a friggin whacko. she's said the same thing to me, when it comes to customers and then she walks around furious saying, "miss goody two shoes (bda used to use the same words) and he prefers HER to me. its such a bunch of bulshit, everyone lies to everyone."
actually, "everyone" doesn't. and it much easier not to, less to keep track of. no wonder she did so poorly in school, there is no room left in her brain for facts, because she is busy fantasizing lies and trying to recall all those lies. wtf? how about just leave out what you don't want people to know and leave it at that? beautiful looks, but useless, and boy is she going to have a mid life crisas soon, because its amazing her looks have held up at all, especially this long. and when her looks are completely gone, then what? she should read gail sheehy's book "passages" as superficial people like that fit in all the categories in sheehy's book completely. but i don't think she reads for entertainment at all, and i'm not being mean when i say that, i'm just stating a fact.
one of the huge benefits of not having daunting looks or even less, is getting to see people's true colors right away, instead of somewhere down the line. the whole fake-nice thing is totally annoying, and so many people are good at that - good actors, they should all move to hollywood, california. it would suit the actors of real life, they'd be amongst their own.
some people avoid the looks thing even in college, by purposely gaining weight, because they hate all the gawkers. if looks is the only thing the person defines themself with, that is pathetic at 41, its sad enough that goes on on some level in one's teens and 20's.
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*hugs* I\'m sorry you had to put the herpes kitten down. I think it was your only option. And people who rely on their looks to get them through life annoy the crap out of me. There was this woman I once worked with who was in her 40\'s and had 2 kids and she\'s still dressing like trash. I couldn\'t stand her. I hope you can find a way to get along with her.
hardly ever see her and its always awkward when i do...unreal...she is still bitter because of steve\'s lack of interest in her and still dumbfounded as to why he has no interest because to her its allllll looks, and not to be too blatant, sex. also never met anyone that openly talks about sex the way she does.
i agree with you totally, it amazes me even with celebrities when they do the plastic surgery and go on and on with that. hey, people get old. there is a saying \"at age fifty, we all have the face we deserved all along\" lol. probably true.
i should have known there was something up with that because the weirdo that calls every year for the passed 12 years (i don\'t know this woman but she is one of the stalkers who breaks into houses....grrrr) called and says, you know who this is, (creepy as all hell) and i\'m like actually i don\'t, who are you. and then she says, you know bubba don\'t you. and i\'m like, you mean bubba gump shrimp? no don\'t know anyone by that name at all, sorry and i hang up and she\'s saying, yes you do....as i hang up. then she calls and says she got the name wrong. do i know steve and i\'m like, i know LOTS of people named steve, which one? and she says very annoyed, i don\'t know which one....so i hang up because its ridiculous and then i realize this is the stalker woman again, so i call the police. two calls is considered harrassment. it never stops you know then i get a call saying, you call the police just for that and i\'m like, i don\'t know who you are and i have no idea why you are calling here. so she says, if i tell you will you drop the charges and i\'m like no. then she calls again and says that her boyfriend won\'t let her call me anymore so she is going to \"watch\" me from my friend\'s neighbor and relay messages through them. and i\'m like, you realize you are crazy don\'t you. its unreal that this is going on for so long, then i hear from n and she says, the stalker woman wanted to contact her former partner\'s DAUGHTER who lives in pensacola to ask her to \"watch\" (watching is really stalking/peeping tom, how creepy can you get) me if i visit or move to pensacola (i have an aunt and a cousin there). i can tell this is going to end up being a civil law suit, what is hilarious is if this were a m area, they would have handled this already, their way. instead, it just goes on and on, plus they are involved in so much WORSE stuff, its unreal. i think they are the types of people who have done criminal things all of their lives and since they don\'t go to jail, they don\'t comprehend that its crime and they do more and more of it. GROSS!