This is my world

How do I tame my emotional roller coaster of feelings. and I just want to have a peace of mind knowing that everything will be ok and that I will overcome some of my biggest issues with ADD and Bipolar. It seems to get worse when I am on my cycle. At times I just wish that I was more stablized. At times it seems hopeless and I just close up and feel all alone and uncertain of what the future holds for me. At this present moment I can't get a job because I do not know how to drive. I have a fear of the road when I get behind the wheel, it feels like my anxiety levels rise more and then I go into this big panic when I see a police about a half of mile away and I think I will get my husband's vehicle towed away.

Right now I am at a vulnerable stage in my life, I have been on my meds off and on for a little more than a year. I have been reading books on ADD and Bipolar and came to a realization that I have a lot of inner pain and inner confusion and it tends to get in the way of my successful achievements that I have accomplished. When I try to apply for a job, sometimes I get extremely nervous and my self confidence drops extremely. What do I do and what should I say when the erruptions occur spontaneously? All I can do is continue to pray and ask God for guidance and motivation of some sort to keep me going.