this is my right now...

well since ive been on last, i was married! we spent our honeymoon, literally, in the hospital for my new husband to have surgery 2 hours away from home...he is doing better but i am doing worse...my bladder will not quit...i had my last hydro-distension in march and it has already seemingly worn off...the fibro sucks but the cymbalta helps and the bladder remains center stage...my bowel issues seem to have calmed considerably since i cut gluten out, so that makes me wonder...having trouble getting used to the cpap machine, like sleeping in a wind storm, with crap on my face...i know it seems im only complaining, but there is good too...we adopted a puppy, or should i say mini horse, lol...we are happy and doing the best we know how...i think since i saw the urologist yesterday and he had to refer me to another specialist, im feeling a bit defeated...but im actually looking forward to seeing the new one...he is billed as the IC specialist by my urologist and the internet, so i will trek the 3+ hours each way, and try to hold onto the hope he can help...