this has to stop

this has to stop grrr missed the darn bus again this mornin thats the 4th time or sumthing since i started in september grr i never missed the bus before.so much is on my mind and i cant tell u what it is cause i dont no myself.i always talk myself out of things i 'really' want to do i drive myself nuts. parents arent helping by giving me doubts about my bf not that that makes a diff i already have them.grr whats wrong with me i have a life ahead but i seem stuck and am sinkin fast.