This god fella..

I have been in long discussion about this for a long portion of my life. I was born a catholic and I have been praying to a god who I feel.....well it sucks to say this, but not there. Yes not there. You can go on and on and if your mad at me go ahead and delete me. I have not gotten any answers to my prayers if fact shit had just gotten worse. I don't even ask for material things, I simply ask to point me in a direction where I will find happiness and I have not recieved any answers, I have not ever once spoken to "god" I have not seen a "god" I have not expirenced a presense of "god" for all I know this "god" is a made up character and you can tell me well your just not asking the right questions, or that maybe it's not right for you to be happy, well screw that. I now believe in one thing which "god" will never provide for me and that is money. Thats right I believe in making money it's time that I forget about that fake ass eye in the sky and you know what I will feel better about it too. My life and my relationship with "god" is useless and unforgiving. I am not going to sit around praying to a thing that isn't even there and this whole bible is a lie you don't know who wrote that thing. No body does. Well if I need to be happy with what I have and understand that what I don't have is all in gods will well than I'm tearing up that will and throwing it away. I DO NOT WANT WHAT GOD HAS TO OFFER ME. and if this means that I am going to hell then so be it, someones got to go mine as well be me. I have been through tough times and I have seen shit that you'll only imagine in your wildest dreams. As far as this "god" though I don't want anything to do with him.  Hasn't helped me out one bit after all the bible studies, prayers day after day, sitting in church trying to figure out what I need to do to understand god was all for nothing. I am proud to say that I do not believe in "god" anymore. futhermore I will be living a life surronded by money becase y'all just make up excuses of why you need "god" in your life. well bullshit if you ain't talking about money than I gotta go bye. Anyways if you feel like I am wrong or your upset with me fine. delete me, but know this I am who I am and you can keep believing in whatever you feel like, but in reality your just talking to nobody just yourself because thats all you got in this world yourself. Where is that fool hiding anyway whats he afraid of? and if "god" is real then I guess the joke is on me...