Thinking Outloud

I was just setting her today and i just started writing the things that have been running through my mind.  I write a lot of things in my journal and I write a lot of personal messages at times to others here on DS.
Sometimes, people take me the wrong way and sometimes people shy away from me when they see I am an ex-biker and/or a preacher.  I have been told that preahers aren;t very welcome on this site but, that's ok.
Since comig to DS, I have tried to be a shoulder to lean on for those who are carrying a heavy load.  I read other journals and I send messages to let others know that I genuinely care for them and about them.  Some never answer my messages and sometimes this bothers me because I cared enough to take time and write them, at least they could acknowledge that they received my messages.  When I question some of them as to why they don't answer me, the get defensive and blame me for bothering them.  I care about those who are on my friends list and if these "friends" don't want to hear from me, then they can remove me from this friends list.  I may be one of the oldest guys here and I may be from the "Old School" but, I thought that is what friends are for.  To care and share with one another!!!!!!  When I read posts of those who are hurting, I contact them and try to help them.  I show genuine love and concern for them because, as a young man, I had no-one show love and concern for me.  I strive to be an enourager and to be there for those who feel they have no-one.  It's kind of a mystery that a drunken, drug using, tattooed, hell raising ex-biker would be showing genuine love and concern for others.  The physical and the emotional scars I carry, tell the true story of why I do what I do and, why I do it.  I guess if I have to explain it, most wouldn't understand it anyway.  Those of you who know me well here know that I am genuine, sincere, and I am what I say I am. 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

It is wonderful to care about people and try to help them. I know that sometimes people will send me a message and I don\'t always send something back. Sometimes I am going through such a rough patch that it is just too hard to write. But that does not mean I don\'t read the message and appreciate the person who sent it. I don\'t get upset when people don\'t answer. I know that all kinds of things are happening to the people who come here. Just the fact that I got to tell them how I feel is a blessing to me. I cannot control what they think of it, only the message I meant to convey. I always hope that it helps them and when I do hear back from them it is an extra blessing. You have helped many people with your messages. You have to know that in your heart and then the validation doesn\'t have to come from outside yourself. hugs j
deleted_user
deleted_user

IVE ALWAYS KNOW HOW MUCH YOU CARE, ITS A SHAME THAT OTHERS CANT SEE THE SHINING LIGHT IN YOU HUGS WENDY
deleted_user
deleted_user

Thank you for caring. God uses all kinds of people for His purpose. You are a genuine disciple who cares.....In Christ, Dale...Brandon\'s Mom
grammydebest
grammydebest

love you my friend you are the best