Thinking about what happened to me

I have been thinking alot about what happened to me. I know that is has had a very profound affect on how I view love and sex and relationships in general. I always pushed people away from me when they got to close to me because I didn't want to hurt anymore. But the older I get the more I realize that I was crazy to do that. Because who knows if the love of my life would have been a man I pushed away. I will always be cautious about men but I will not push them away or compare them to my ex husband any more. They don't deserve that. But at the same time I won't settle for any thing less then someone loving me and cerishing me the way I deserve to be. I would not wish what happened to me on any one. It is to hard and to painful.