thinking

just been thinking that maybe the reason why God hasn't givin me the job is cuz im not seeking hard enough or just not in the right places.  maybe thats it. ?    and why is it that when i'm not thinking of Danielle she emails me or calls or whatever but when i am thinking of her then she never responds???!!!!!! i don't get that at all??? i don't understand?  i feel like im on a emotional rollercoaster with her. if she only knew! u know!? ill always love her!