Things that make you go Hmmm??
Ha. Ha.. So yesterday I took my 10 year old daughter and 2 of her friends to see New Moon..OMG.I loved that movie..I have got to read the books though.I love to read but dont have time..anway Eclipse comes out June 2010..Already looking forward to that..Which is nice because lately I dont look forward to much of anything..I am such a downer lately..I have a wonderful beautiful family that I adore and they love me..But I cant learn to love myself.I hate me..I am ugly fat and disgusting..I avoid pictures..I avoid people..I have to make myself go anywhere..I go to work because I know i have to..But like yesterday,we went to the movies..I was excited and happy until I meet up with my friends.They are so beautiful and I am so yuck...I feel like I dont fit in..And I diet..OMG I have been dieting since Bella was born and yes I have lost the pregnancy weight but now I am just stuck with all of this leftover fat..I hate it..Whats wrong with me?Why cant I lose it?Why cant I learn to love me for me?..I have a few friends here that are sooooo supportive.You know who you are and if it werent for them I dont know where I would be today..I question life too much..all of the whys and what ifs...how do you ever find the answers.Do you ever find the answers.....
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I am jealous...I haven\'t had time to get to New Moon, but I want to go and check it out!
Don\'t be so hard on yourself. I am sure you are beautiful! I had felt the same way about my weight and was a downer too...Then I joined weight watchers with my mom and found my niche and lost some weight, was motivated to go for a walk, join a gym and just eat right. Try and find a support person that will do it with you...makes it much easier when you have someone to go with!
OMG....i have read all the books....twice! the whole series is amazing! Did you see the first movie??
I am an official Twilight fanatic! Dont tell me about New Moon though...i haven\'t seen it yet! :)
You are beautiful Tracy. You are most certainly NOT yuck! You are a gorgeous woman, inside and out. It sound to me like you may be having some depression issues...have you talked to your doctor about this? I hate seeing you so sad all the time. You are far too awesome a person to be so hard on yourself. And Jessi2 is right, walking and exercise will make you feel so much better, especially if you had a \"work out buddy\" even your daughter maybe, or your husband, to go for a walk together in the evenings.
Giant hugs honey...I hope you feel better soon, I don\'t like you being so down on yourself.
I tend to agree with LdMay, I don\'t know where you get off thinking you are not beautiful, nothing could be futher from the truth.
You are beautiful