Things on my mind (not great)

Lately, I’ve been feeling off, and a lot of things have been building up. I reconnected with a friend I had drama with, and she told me that one of my friends had been talking badly about me. I don’t know what to believe, but it’s still making me feel uneasy.

On top of that, I’ve been having some issues with Tristan. When we’re on the phone, he’s always playing video games, it still makes me feel a little ignored. I haven’t told him how I feel about it because I know he enjoys his games, and I don’t want to take that away from him. But it still stings.

Then there’s Shelby—she was a situationship for Tristan, she never actually liked him but led him on and he was hard core into her. Since me and Tristan started dating, she’s been talking badly about me, calling me ugly and saying that my choice to be with him is “interesting.” I don’t want to tell Tristan about this new stuff I found out today that she said because I don’t want to ruin his day, so I just keep it to myself and put on a fake smile.

I know I shouldn’t care, but it still hurts, and it’s been a lot to handle on my own. I don't know who I can trust anymore with being told my own friends are telling my secrets and talking bad about me.