Things in this life change too fast

It was only a few months ago i felt on top of the world. I hadf a loving a girlfriend was doing greatr in school. Now it seems life is crashing to end. I am out of school for the summer got a parttime summer job and still have a loving g/f. My mother hates her now,all because she played it low key for my birthday. Personally I am fairly ok with that. I am not ok with the fact I have to choose having a child over her. She knew when I met her children were a possible factor of my future. She should never have of gotten into this with me. I know i can't totally blame her she always said she didn't want kids. I knew the day I told her it would the beginning of the end. How long does one drag out the end? For once love is not an issue. For once i get the attention I crave but it is not enough where does it end? As I watch the end come closer I make more rules for the next woman in my life whoever she maybe.. I now know a butch woman is a defenant turn on for me. the butcher the better. I also know I will not tolerate smoking. These damn smokeers are going to kill me. I do well not smoking til I am around them. They make them look so good. Well for anyone reading this if you have a single butch non smoker cuddling loving friend around send her my way. Must love dogs and cats.