Things I want to shout from a rooftop #1
I like a girl, okay? I. Like. A. Girl. She is beautiful and smart and funny and I don't know what to do. We met in a weird way, but that's okay. I don't want to be afraid because of it anymore. I want to feel okay about this. But she's there, and I'm here. With him. The one with the girlfriend. The one that says, 'Next time I'm single, we'll be together.' And the one time he is, he get's another girlfriend. We "talk dirty" to each other and I don't feel bad at all because I want him and I am sick of waiting. That's my little hit when he tells me what he wants to do to me but is bound my some beautiful blonde stranger. I don't want to be a virgin anymore. I need a release. I don't care about being in love or romance, all that bullshit. I need to get laid, that's it. And I'm sick of being the only one who understands what I'm going through. I just want someone to put their hands on me. Honestly, am I that repulsive? I know I don't have the perfect body, but I've met a lot uglier girls that get some every weekend on the dot. I am trying to loose weight, I am trying to get that body but it's so fucking hard for me. Why can't you just accept me the way I am?