Things are starting to get better...
Ok, Day 5 is almost over! Things are starting to improve a little bit, I have accepted my financial situation and I am going to do everything I can to improve it - the honest way. I got myself a second job today! Printed off some resumes, saw a help wanted sign and went in and got the job :)
With a little hard work, and focusing on being a good, honest, truthful person things will get better. I just need to STAY away this time, and not to relapse after 2 weeks, or 2 months, or 6 months. My friend once joked that it would only be so long before I go and mess up my life again... I don't think he knew how close he was to the truth!
I have to remember the pain and hurt that I caused, to my parents, my wife, my brother, my family and friends, my reputation, my mental and physical health... I was getting so many horrible headaches like everyday, I haven't had a headache in about 2 days now!
One day at a time for now... Think positive thoughts, try to remember who I am, the good person I know I am and can be.
With a little hard work, and focusing on being a good, honest, truthful person things will get better. I just need to STAY away this time, and not to relapse after 2 weeks, or 2 months, or 6 months. My friend once joked that it would only be so long before I go and mess up my life again... I don't think he knew how close he was to the truth!
I have to remember the pain and hurt that I caused, to my parents, my wife, my brother, my family and friends, my reputation, my mental and physical health... I was getting so many horrible headaches like everyday, I haven't had a headache in about 2 days now!
One day at a time for now... Think positive thoughts, try to remember who I am, the good person I know I am and can be.
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Alex, You can do it buddy. Stay focused, and when you get the itch/urge, play the video of your last \"outing\" from start to finish. Then come here to this journal entry, and read it over and over. You are a good person and deserve the best....so do the people who love and care about you. Be well and stay strong-Warm regards, Tagg
Thanks Tagg, starting to come back here as much as possible again, went to a GA meeting tonight. I can\'t do it alone but I know where to find help, thanks so much! Hope you are doing well too!