Things are going wrong

My wife wants me to move out. As I said - I don't blame her, I understand her but... I don't want to lose her. Well, it is quite possible I already did... I have also passed through many documents from my company and I have realised how much incompetency it shows. It hardly brings enough money to pay social insurance at the moment. It seems like I should close it and look for a normal job. Actually I should do this a long time ago... I know it is also one of things my wife expects from me. The problem is I don't even know how to look for a job...The only thing that brings me little joy is that it started to snow. Maybe there'll be white Christmas... Only - will it be Christmas with Her ot not?