Thing's change
Well here it is already Feb.2014,wow time sure flies. I am now 50 and tomorrow my daughter will be 18. My son just turned 25,what do all these thing's have in common? Pat wasn't here for them,He should be here for us,I know he is in spirit but it's just not the same. My life has been turned upside down since he died.Moving,marriage,annulement,new boyfriend,wow how did all this happen?All I ever wanted out of life was to be a wife and a mother,raise my kids,keep a good home,cook,I mean it wasn't to much to ask for was it?All of a sudden August 1,2011 happens and not only is Pat gone but my life get's turned upside down. I mourn for a long time then I meet someone who I honestly thought God brought into my life because his last name and my maiden name are the same,we are together all the time,he and his granddaughter move in with me and my kids,then we all get a home together that we are suppose to buy,that last a whole month till we find foundation issues,then he and granddaughter move back into his old trailer while me and my 2 kids move into a trailer that turns out has mold in it,when he (tim) finds out he moves me out of it and I go to his place,3 days later we go back and get my daughter while my son stays at the moldy trailer cause its not affecting him.The we are in trailer (his)together and in sept we decide to go ahead and get married,the wedding was small and nice,we leave a few days later for a honeymoon to VA for 3 days and when we get back everything changes,he changes,the x threatens to take away the grandaughter and ends up doing it till we divorce and now they are on some kind of joint custody and he gets her in the summer and weekends and holidays,he never really wanted us in his life,I was such a fool to be taken in by him,but atleast that's in the past now,now believe it or not we are friend's (im careful,afraid he will bite me in the butt on that too)Our annulement should be done within 30 days and if it has to be divorce then 90 days.Now I have met someone named Jerry,he's a nice guy,50 nice looking,it has not really got serious yet and whether it will or not is anybody's guess.I also have a guy named David who want's to meet me,he is going to be 50,and his wife dropped dead of a heart attack at age 45,he has been a widower for 3 year's. I guess you could say Jerry is a widower too,they were not married but together 29 yrs and she died.My life is a real soap opera(lol) and the thing is I didn't ask for this,I never thought life would be so crazy at 50,that was suppose to be for young people not older people,we are suppose to be with our husbands,have a paid for house that we have lived in for 30 years,and be thinking of retiring and traveling,instead I get a freaking soap opera.All I want to know is why? I wish I could understand all this,I have got maybe one thing figured out,Tim was the WRONG man but maybe he was only there to show me I CAN love again,I mean if I could love him after the way he trated me then yes I am capable of loving again. Just my thoughts, ME
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Just want to add my life was turned upside down too and still is since Ken died 2004. I look at the past 10 yrs and cannot believe the heartache Ive had, Lost my husband, his 2 brothers and both of our mothers all in 16 mos. Ive lost 3 friends, our dog, my home and all my things in storage, I have met the worst people and the best people andI feel like i\'m in the twi light zone. As I told you before don\'t rush the romance it\'ll come to you. Take care
Oh and I don\'t want to discount my brother, anniversary of his death this month as well. I lost him too, 2 yrs ago. They say God doesn\'t give you more than you can handle but he has with me. its a strange journey being a widow huh? And that bribngs me to my son deserting me after it all. I am now homeless and struggling my ass off. Who would of ever thought this???