Things

Well I've been able to get out of the house with the little one for at least an hour for the past couple of days. It's been so nice outside, I just can't not go out with him. We took a great walk yesterday and it was so much fun to just hang out with him and watch him explore. If I could just understand him more. hehe.  Things are okay. All though I think a manic episode is slowly making it's way out. The hubby has been very depressed lately because of our money situation. He's been feeling very insecure and like he's not "living" up to what he thinks he should be. I've been trying to tell him that things will work out and we always get over our "speed bumps". But last night he started getting snippy with me about nothing. Which made my flags go up and think, oh boy here we go. I'm just wondering where this one is going to take us. I am going to try my best not to "push" his buttons. For some reason when he's like this, I tend to do that more. Which I'm not really sure why. Stress is such a catalyst for his episodes. I really want him to get help and I think he wants it also, but considering the fact that we can't even pay for the essentials right now going to the Dr. is out of the question. Just sucks that for him to get the help he needs we have to put out so much money. I'm not even going to start bitching about our health care system right now. It's just as screwed up as everything else right now. With things being this bad, it's so hard to try and see into the future and see something better. Even with the election coming up it's going to take a long time to get our country back to where it was just a year ago. I have heard a lot of people say they aren't going to vote this election because they don't want any of the canadiates in office. I must say I agree. I'm so scared for our country and for our children. What have they done to deserve this mess?!! I just hope that some how, some way we can fix this and make sure our children and our childrens children, etc. have a good place to live and can afford to live.