Things

Well I haven`t written anything in a while,so just thought that I would write something and maybe just get back into doing this journaling. Every one say`s that it helps to just write things down so that you can think about what you are writting but some of the time dosen`t it just feel like you are writting to be writting.I know that some of my ideas are just me rambling but then that is supposed to be a good thing to.I have had a lot to deal with the last month or so but to me tha things that I have been through my life and the last 5 years don`t even compare to some of the people here at DS.I haven`t had any cancer or anything like that so I don`t know how it feels to have a life or death situation like that face me every day but I have had a life or death moment durring my life so I kind of know how it feels.I guess the reason  for me talking about it is that one of my cousins has had breast cancer and she dosen`t want the rest of the family to know about it.The only reason that I know about it is because my wife works at the cancer treatment place here and she dosen`t keep secrets from me.My cousin dosen`t know that I know and I am not going to talk to her about it because she has enough to worry about.It is one of those situations that you sit back and wonder why is this happening to this person who has shown nothing but love to every one and never asked anything from anyone except to be yourself and not put on some kind of false front about anything.I know it sounds like she is not following what she want`s everyone else around her to do but in this aspect I think that when she feels like it is the right time to tell everyone about it then she will do it in her own time and way and I can`t take that from her.My Mom is doing great with the recovery of her broken hip and we are making progress in getting her some help with her memory.This last week she went to see my doctor and then she had a CT scan done of her brain so that the doc could get some kind of clue as to what is going on wheather her problems are caused from some kind of stroke or something all together something different.I just know that for my Mom and Dad to agree to go to a doctor it is a great step for them.My Dad has alway`s been the one that dosen`t think doctors know what they are dealing with and he just will not go to one.He is changing some of his dis-belief in doctors I think because of what all that I have went through.And if that is the reason then that is fine with me.I know that there are good doctors out there just like there are good and bad in everything,you just can`t get away from that old saying.I know it sounds like a cleshay but it is true that there is good and bad in everything.But you can`t block out doing something just because you can find something bad about it.If we did that everytime we tried to do something we would still be living in the dark ages.I think that my Moto is going to be just get up and do something,even if you don`t know what the results are going to be,just get up and do it.Well I am going to go for now,I think that I have talked enough for a while so why don`t we just get up and do it what ever it is just do it.Unless it is something that hurts or harms someone then you might want to think about why and look into yourself and change that part of you that is causing you to be that way.Love yourself so that others can Love you.Monte