They lied when they said best friends means friends forever..

After my Doctor's appointment I caved and drank a bottle of wine with a friend. Surprisingly I enjoyed my night. We played music videos and of course I sang along to every song. I finally just woke up and realized that I have spent a LOT of time waiting for people to change in my life. Part of my personality and who I am is that I always expect the best in people or see their potential. 9 out of 10 times they never change and I sit there upset and disappointed. I have spent a LOT of time constantly being there for people who didn't deserve my attention and who never bothered to return the love. It's almost as if they EXPECT me to do it now, and now that I have changed a LOT in my life, they seem bitter and annoyed so they keep their distance. Excuse my French but FUCK THAT! After all these years and everything I have done for these people they can't even give me the respect to ask me ONCE how I am doing? They know that I have going through a LOT in the past year and it's almost as if they don't care. Even when I was struggling I was still putting others before me. Why couldn't they just be there for me? Just once?! Rather then steering away from the actual topic I wanted to discuss I will just end this part with this: Thank GOD that I have woken up. I know who my true friends are and I rather have them then a bunch of people who pretend to be my friend and talk bad behind my back. Screw them. They don't deserve my friendship. Although it took me a couple of years to figure this out, it's better now than never right!