these days...

so one week ago i was beaming...I mean its been one whole year and no episode.  not one single sign.  its like the bp has disappeared.  i am eternally grateful for this.  today tho my mood has changed a lil.  i am feeling a lil more blah.  i am not depressed tho i just dont feel as hyped up as i did.  i started something new two weeks ago.  im attending classes at recovery innovations of arizona.  the classes are wonderful. they are self help groups that deal with spiritual and emotional and physical aspects of mental illness.  i learned about empowerment like being kind to myself and just what that means.  ive learned about finding a happy balance.  we have also looked at lyrics to songs to aid in the journey of recovery.  i also have an awesome new counselor.  these groups are awesome because they really hit on lifes issues and i feel right at home because everyone there has similiar issues.  my goal is t take classes there until jan.  that is when i will start classes in phoenix to become a peer recovery coach.  i think these classes last two months.  they are everyday but in the end it will be worth it because i will have a job making $14 an hour.  i will miss the "enlightenment" classes im taking now but then again i will be a real part of RIAZ.  and this is something i want very much. 
its christmas time and my roomate and i have been talking about taking a trip back home.  we would drive up to cali(her mom lives in pasadena about 20 min from where i grew up) i would love to see my friends and fam but my sis has said i cant stay with her.  this royally bites because i want to spend some quality time with my neices and nephews.  my sis has 5 kids and i miss them sooo much.  my cousin says i might be able to stay with him so well see .  they have to get on the bandwagon soon as it is 20 days until christmas.  Adriana my friend from living word bible church and i are going to vegas for new years.  so, su will stay in cali and fly home and i will drive back so that i can go with adriana. 
oh boy this life o mine is looking up.  i can see it...