theres no northfor things, things can only seem to go south

some time ago i resiontly got a phar of soun caneling head phgones the kind i prefe for the job that dont play music  but muffles out sounds  of all sortsand then  suddenly now my headphones broke  thats was the only thing keeping me calm or helping me get to sleep when i need it most now i feel every little sound has a slight potenchal of bugging me a bit
i m currently feeling  mad sad angry  and dangerously snappy to  other ppl in the house i know they did not do it but the same time   im on a emotinal frits and feel like im on the ferge of just emotinaly collapsing and  to the point where i wanna cry  so much  but i cant  because of sinus ishues i aslo hate loosingthem becase  i need them for my sleep
i just hope this is a opperttunity to get better ones  or even bettter a real sturdy hold over that wont breacvk as easly  and is cheap and effordable and effective for sleep
 now  i feel like i cant read at all becase its to emotinaly taxing now  i feel like i tottaly failed in life so far  ive been only stubmling  around and clumsly  wrecking everything i work so hard to build
 i feel the need to just give up on all i try so hard for becase  it all just gose back down the toobes
it dont seem much fair i got in such perdictiment
i cant handle much more becase i dont know what works or whos telling the truth on what works to help
and im afraid ti try much of anything becase im afraid it would cost me money and then i get scammed out if it theres so much i want yet so litttle  so far has been done i dont like how slow things are going ither its like lalty everything srevalving around money and when that comes to play i feel then i dont exzist becase  i have to go w/ out dr. appointments  it aslo means longer for profeshinal help
to be obtaind and it aslo means i have to be pertct in imune system  and never get sick or injurd
infact if there was a face to describe how im feeling on mood  it would put the current lowest one possible to shame
nothing is going my way
i can understand not everthing can but  id likee atleast somthing i like go right
its just down right deadly horrible  i aslways seem to find my self comming back in this sever state of emotion and its all cuz ofg the ld ishues i have as well as manny days not going the way i like em to go
i feel so emotinaly tried and want some one to save me from the drop belowme becase i feel like im holding on a cliff and cant hold on much longer i know at times like now  id find much blissfull happyness  just qutting and give up
but ultimetly im saying help im emotinaly week i have been going throo some ruff times
i dont know if i can amke it w/ out friends  to help me  feel atleast slightly better  or frineds to help me take my mind off things
i wish some things would go faster like  all this emotinal hard times and somee other things slow like how fast the day passes i mean  its way short for me  if had it it my way id probly dobble the legnth
of it as well as the (k)nights
i aslo feel right now like i got cheated out of my own hope s wishes and dreams
i ema wouldnt  any one else if they see som other persion fly by school as fast as they can blink
wile you on ther had would be put to shame befcase even the slowest living thing alive is zillions times faster then ur abilitys to learn
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