Theres hope!!

Havnt been on in awhile but decided to write today,Feb 18th this year was my 3yr Anni. of my back surgrey. In my other entry's I wrote about not being abe to be happy and excited about my b-day bcuz my surgrey day was three days before and thats all I could ever think about,when someone mentioned February my mind went straight to the 18th,my surgrey day,not my B-day and I hated that! This year I was sitting at school and we had jus got our calendars for the month of Feb. so I started marking th days that I had something planed,church,choir practing ext..then I wrote "My 20th Birthday" on the 21st,taped th calendar up on my desk and started doing my work again,went to lunch and came back,when I sat down I sat down to fast and it hurt my back a lil more then it had already been hurting,and I thought "Hate it when that happens!" Then I looked at my calendar and realized I hadnt put anything on th 18th like I usually do and I had thought of my Birthday,and other days and it didnt pop into my head that I had back surgrey! For the first time I was excited about my Birthday without wanting to cry at the same time. I dont feel like the same Kelsie before my back surgrey,before I got sick..I'm different and I dont know how to be the same as before..but I do know that I'm healing! My physical scar healed a long time ago but the emotional ones are still  healing. So if you'v been scared emotionaly by anything and dont know if your every going to heal or even start healing I'm telling you you will! I promise! All the times you'v sat in bed crying or called your BestFriend crying,that was you healing in some way. Dont lose hope,time and tears heal all wounds! Its not bad to jus sit and cry every once in while,its not a sign of weekness,its part of healing! If you need someone to talk to I'm here for you! You can find me on FaceBook if you want,jus look for Kelsie Sadie Brothers